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I had my kids overnight on Wednesday-Thursday. Mira and Christian stayed with CJ and I, and it was nice. Mira played me, of course, (as she knows how to do, OH SO WELL :P), and convinced me to let her stay up. We played on the computer a while, and with the webcam, (which she liked, because she's a natural born ham and model), after Christian went down for the count. It was a semi-restless evening, though, because Christian is getting his back molars in, and developed a bad rash on his bottom during the night. He was in definite pain, so we had an early morning bath at 5:30 am to bring down the swelling, and then it was go-go-go from there, until they went home.
You don't realize how much and how fast they grow, sometimes. I found myself staring at Mira, and replaying her infancy in my mind. She's getting so big, now. She's 4 & 1/2, (which she constantly likes to remind you), going on 22, somtimes. She wants to be so grown up, and I'm definitely not ready for her to. She'll always be my little girl. I got a bit emotional watching her and her brothers play Wednesday night. Where does the time go? They grow up so fast, and before you know it, they're thinking they know everything, and don't want your help anymore. I know that's how adolescence is, but man, you just want them to stay small, and need you forever. And, of course, Mira was giving me the guilt trips, ( she's notorious for them). "Daddy, when are you gonna come home? Daddy, I want you to live with me again. Daddy, my nama got me a book called 2 family's apart." Wow..could you cut my heart out, anymore than it already is, sugar? And, it's like you try not to get into logistics with them, but you want to make sure they know it's not their fault, either. Nature of the beast, I suppose. But, I definitely enjoyed their company, and just love whatever time I get with them.
Random quote: The simplest way to plan ahead is merely to be ready for everything.
September 4 2005, 03:31:51 UTC 6 years ago
From one to another...
My stepdaughter is going to be 13 in October. She has breasts and an attitude right now. THe funny thing is that I told my wife that our young one is still a ways aweay. She reminded me that we're a quarter of the way there.Oye!
I just tucked her in bed tonight. She will fall out of bed atrounf 4:30 like she always does. Then we'll bring her in bed with us so every one can sleep. Some times I'm I look so forward to watching her grow. And sometimes I wish she would stay this way forever.
You know, I never planned on having kids. Really. And know that I'm a dad, I don't know what my life would be like now if I wasn't.
September 4 2005, 05:51:10 UTC 6 years ago
I always wanted kids. I've always loved kids, and love introducing my kids to new experiences. There's a commercial they always used to show, and they still do sometimes, where the father and daughter are sitting on a hill, and they're watching the sunset. And, the daughter leans over and whispers to her father, "Do it again, Daddy." (meaning make the sunset, again, for those of you not on the same wavelength :P). That commercial still affects me to this day. Just typing it, brings a lump to my throat.
I try to be that dad with my kids. I love seeing their eyes, when I show them some new wonder. And, I hope to do that for the rest of their lives. But, now it's like it was taken from me. I won't have that 24/7 exposure, anymore. I feel as though I was robbed. Maybe it's just me, but I worry that I won't get to be the one who shows them those cool things, anymore, like I used to be able to. Now, with my youngest son, these are the impressionable times. I'll miss most of the new stuff he'll discover every day, and learn.
I know they'll still look to me for things, but it sucks not having that constant exposure, anymore. That's all.